05.02.2010

sometimes, not everything we want in life can be achieved . there are a lot of circumstances to face. and i sit there on lonely nights. dear friends, i tried my best to not hurt anyone, but im just a human. normal person who did mistakes. i want to be unique. but i know i cant go any further when im no longer myself. i want to achieve what i want in life and it's not being selfish. i want to see all of us succeed, this is just the way i am. i am me. i didnt intend to hurt anyone, to make fool of their words. i just dont know which is which. i am the youngest and i am me. know that it hurts me to hurt you. it kills me to not talking to you. it bothers me of all the mistakes i've done. what can i do? i want to have my own friends. i want to achieve excellent results. most importantly i want to be myself. if im wrong forgive me. if i do mistakes, do tell me nicely. small kids got small heart. there are time when i keep quite. all the things ive done reflected back to the mind's eye. i just can be me. i cant change. its hard though.

can i be myself when people are pointing their fingers at me?
am i just saying im confident when im actually collecting all the might to face all the challenges?
can i succeed in life?
am i just pretending that im good but inside it tears me apart?
am i trying to care for their feelings and ignoring mine?
am i a good friend, daughter and sister?
am i useless for always missing thing and trouble my parents?
can i trouble them NO MORE?
can i love when it hurts
can i dream without dissapointment?
can i rest from all these things?
can i?

oh kisah...

oh kisah. akhirnya dapat tulis blog... hmm nampak gayanya seminggu skali la boleh tulistulis. :)
guys. magazine dah 93% siap. legalegalega....:)) semua da jumpa... fuhh...hmmm... seminggu ni asek kena marah je...
1)cikgu wan kecik hati dgn class die - dah 2 minggu da...
2)cikgu sej kata kitorg tak hormat cikgu
3)cikgu asma tahan kitorg kat lab bio
4)cikgu math kata kitorg lambat tangkap
pastu??
1) dompet ilang- naseb baek along ade... thanx along! <3 u
2)keje skola btimbun
3)alep cari pasal

oh kisah smalam. aq suda bebaS!!! aq benci die. kaw jgn siibok dengan hidup aq suda oke?-slamat JALAN.

bahagia.gembira.senyum.sengih.:)))))

editorial board,,=)

hello 2010

yerp. tomorrow we are going to be jailed again with the monkeys from the zoo in Taiping. 2009 has just passed by. hello 2010! hope this year brings more joy and laughter to all of us. and i hope that all that has happened in 2009 makes me even more stronger to face the challenges.

28 december 2009. thanx 4 all the wishes. i love u guys! it has been so long since i updated my blog. well, i wanna be like a bonzai, as the years went by, it became more expensive, though it is just a small plant. i wanna be rich with useful experiences, knowledges, and to learn from the mistakes that ive done.

2010 is tha spm year for teh 1993. good luck!
(sigh)

jailed!

qina !!

tenkiu taw bg ain benda nie

terharu taw!!

thanx jugak cuz jdik kwn ain

t8 care dear kat pontian sana:D

straight a+ SPM 2010.

~aamiin
:D

qina! kish2 hug2
thanx!

bila saya masok dapor

ok. this happen when i was so bored staying alone during holiday. and i dont wanna eat cuz i dont wanna get fat back. soi persuaded my mum to not cook for me instead i volunteered to cook for her. first recipe was curry. and that's the only recipe i cooked. hahaha.

i started at 3 pm. and before that i called my mum
"ibu . mcmane nak buat ni?? huaaa"
hehehe. ibu kat kerja pun tak senang. so ibu kata la.
"amik bawang, santan, bunga lawang(kot nama dia), and .....blablabla"
second call:
"ibu, bunga lawang yang mana satu? asam keping ke? ibu letak kat mana?"

so tetiba abah balik. ibu suruh tanya abah . jadi...


"abah, bunga lawang yang mana?"
"anak dara bunga lawang pun tatau"
pastu abah amikkn. abah stay jela kat dapo. oleh kerana terasa kekok, saya telah menghalau abah

"abah, duk luar la. malula. adik tak reti"
"cek, eksyen. ok"

rugila pulak . abah g tido atas kerusi. pastu. dah letak santan semua... rasalah sikit....pastu

third call:
"ibu!!! macam ta jadi je, tak rase papepun... iskiskisk(rasa nk ngs da tau!)"
"tanya la abah"
"tanak, abah tido"
"kejotla"
"takot"
"xpe kejot je. okla...ibu byk kje ni..."
tuuut..tuut..tut...
ibu letak:((

so aq pergilah meneruskan kari yang tataulah apa akn jadi padanya, tetiba abh masok. abah gelak. merah padam muka! abah cakap
"ingat abah tak dgar adik ckp ngan ibu"
kehkehkehkehkeh...abah gelak dengan tersangat bahagia..... huaaaa

pastu abah rasa kari 2....

"adik dah letak garam dah???"
"kene letak garam ke? ibu tak cakap pun"

hahahahahha. abah gelak. sakitnya hati . mana adik tau. adik duk asrama.

huaaaaaaa

dan akhirnya. kari tersebut.....

sedap!
setelah di adjust oleh chef jamal. hehehe. he is really a good cook. :D

shinese shahida?

i guess i need to change my name . yeah. they keep thinking im a chinese. maybe it is because my dad has a chinese blood. hey! im proud of that u knoe. ONE MALAYSIA? and i do hope that one day i can learn talking in chinese. mandarin. hahaha !

yeah there's one morning i went for a jog at my home here. and then there's this chinese greeting me like some sort of "nyee haw"??? i dont knoe what does that mean so i went like "im sorry aunty, im a MALAY, n i dont speak chinese" and she goes like " oh yeah?! u do really look like a chinese . i thought u are a chinese. well im sorry. do u have a chinese blood?"" yes my father is a chinese, in tg karang, selangor" then she treat me with an ice cream. oh. nak joging sbb na kurus. tmbh lemak jugakkkk. hahaha! satu benefit jugakkkk kn???

well.. at least when i grow up, they can remember me as a girl with that chinese-look-alike... rite??


"Ain Syahidah yang mane ea???"
"alah, yang muka mcm cina tue"
"oh ok. INGAT"