All this time i was wasting,
Hoping you would come around
I've been givin' out chances every time
And all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long baby
But i figured you out
And you think it would be fine again
But not this time around
You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But i don't believe you baby,
Like i did beforeYou're not sorry.
Looking so innocent,
I might believe you if i didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waitin' in the cold
And you got to share your secrets
And i'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
it's worked each time before
You had me crawling for you honey
And it never would have gone away, no
You used to shine so bright, But watched our love fade
So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But i don't believe you baby,
Like i did before
You're not sorry.
~taylor swift...
Friday, November 20, 2009
the "guy"
yes. i chose this topic. jst there is something i think i need to share. i m talking about the 'guy'. it is not about getting the most popular one in school. that girls at my age would ever want. handsome, fair, tough, tall, clever, older than me. that people will considered me as the lucky girl at the first place for having tht guy. being in love with the guy. it is not about tht. really. that is not what im going to be proud of.
well . it is not about you are "the most popular one" it is about how u care for us. how u show ur love. how u said u love us. and most important thing is how u can lead us. hey,it is not about "her" beauty that im jealous of. it is about who i am in your eyes. i dont care about her being beautiful but not in your eyes. and how u just stay cool when they told me such a thing. and you ask me. " dont you trust me?"yes dear, i trust you. and that is the only answer i can say. but deep inside my heart. im thinking.
dear! how can i trust you? u dont even call or text me. you leave me for a few days without any news and when you came back, you said nothing. when only one day i asked u y? and u said u dont know y u acted that way. u still whisper to me tat u love me. im doubting. is it true that the feelings is there in your heart....? u still want me to trust you. it is not the first time that you did this.u ask me "r u angry" .no.im.not. :((
it is just then i ignored everything, the hurt, the tears, the love, the misses, cares, and i focussed on my studies. yes! my goal-IRELAND.
dear,by this time, know tat im waiting, waiting for your call. but u didnt. just once this morning. that is only a msg. i know. your hp isnt functionin. n bsides that i realize that im not that "no 1" in your eyes. and just how i can ignore that two other guys who have been there for me. everytime. roses. candies. sweet mssgs. i ignored them. broke their hearts. y? i dont have the answers.....
well . it is not about you are "the most popular one" it is about how u care for us. how u show ur love. how u said u love us. and most important thing is how u can lead us. hey,it is not about "her" beauty that im jealous of. it is about who i am in your eyes. i dont care about her being beautiful but not in your eyes. and how u just stay cool when they told me such a thing. and you ask me. " dont you trust me?"yes dear, i trust you. and that is the only answer i can say. but deep inside my heart. im thinking.
dear! how can i trust you? u dont even call or text me. you leave me for a few days without any news and when you came back, you said nothing. when only one day i asked u y? and u said u dont know y u acted that way. u still whisper to me tat u love me. im doubting. is it true that the feelings is there in your heart....? u still want me to trust you. it is not the first time that you did this.u ask me "r u angry" .no.im.not. :((
it is just then i ignored everything, the hurt, the tears, the love, the misses, cares, and i focussed on my studies. yes! my goal-IRELAND.
dear,by this time, know tat im waiting, waiting for your call. but u didnt. just once this morning. that is only a msg. i know. your hp isnt functionin. n bsides that i realize that im not that "no 1" in your eyes. and just how i can ignore that two other guys who have been there for me. everytime. roses. candies. sweet mssgs. i ignored them. broke their hearts. y? i dont have the answers.....
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
ouh blog
sangatsangatsangat siksa bila ade konflik dlm dri sendiri...
i just feel like ive lost myself!
aaaaaa....!!!! ain wake up! wlopon dorg kate aq ta pnah bukak mata(SEPET!) hahaha!
ok .. serious...
aaaaaaaaa
aq nak jerit.....! aq nak study hard! hard! hard! ain... 4.00 flat!
hmmmm....
rse nak ngs.. hari buat majalah lagi. tp aq cam bosan so.. blogging la. hmmphh... exam hr tue mcm menurun. and aq kene work hard cz i wanna catch up balek... mcmane makhluk2 kat taiping nie boleh pandaaaai sgt??? uh? urghhhh
mood: tension
i just feel like ive lost myself!
aaaaaa....!!!! ain wake up! wlopon dorg kate aq ta pnah bukak mata(SEPET!) hahaha!
ok .. serious...
aaaaaaaaa
aq nak jerit.....! aq nak study hard! hard! hard! ain... 4.00 flat!
hmmmm....
rse nak ngs.. hari buat majalah lagi. tp aq cam bosan so.. blogging la. hmmphh... exam hr tue mcm menurun. and aq kene work hard cz i wanna catch up balek... mcmane makhluk2 kat taiping nie boleh pandaaaai sgt??? uh? urghhhh
mood: tension
Thursday, October 8, 2009
akhirnya...
akhernya aq on9 jugakkk...timekaseh dekat ckgu syuhaida kerana memberiku peluang online ini..haha..syg cikgu lah!(stop!!!!) emh.. sbnanye. skrg dekat bilik komputer. editting our magazine. nice la azman buat graphics. serious. and aq rase tercabar sbg editor. huhuhu! tape . tape. we worked very hard for this together and for me, majalah taon nie gempak. alhamdulillah dana dapat dekat 1000 setengah ada.. wah.. doakan aq yewp..!
cadang nak buat semua coloured pages....ouh harapharap taon nie punya best.
hmmm
smlm. aq jeles along dapat balik!!! huaaaaaaaaaa:((
nk balik jugak. deepavali nie pun ta balik! iskiskisk... sedey taw... hmm.. papepun, aq kene thn la.. kata nak g IRELAND? kat sana nt cuti raya pun ta balek. InsyaAllah kalaw dapat. AAMIIN.
ujong taon nie exam lg. bencibencibenci! wish me luck..! aiming for 4 Flat!
gotogo la...
got much more work to do!
cadang nak buat semua coloured pages....ouh harapharap taon nie punya best.
hmmm
smlm. aq jeles along dapat balik!!! huaaaaaaaaaa:((
nk balik jugak. deepavali nie pun ta balik! iskiskisk... sedey taw... hmm.. papepun, aq kene thn la.. kata nak g IRELAND? kat sana nt cuti raya pun ta balek. InsyaAllah kalaw dapat. AAMIIN.
ujong taon nie exam lg. bencibencibenci! wish me luck..! aiming for 4 Flat!
gotogo la...
got much more work to do!
Sunday, September 20, 2009
ouh raye!
seronok dpt balik kelantan! the best thing about raya is goin back 2 qulate. its a lil bit weird to not having my granny around- k let's not talk about that. aha...raya dan makan..tidakkk boleh dipisahkan. aq semakin gemuk dan citacitaku untuk turun 43 kg macam ta jadi je? hahaha... tape2 . byk masa lagi...:D:D:D.. wah .. smalam pegi 4 tempat. empat4 ader nasi dagang...kelantan kan? huhuhu. tp tadela aq makan sampai 4 kali. ouh aq bukan tong lembu. omasum...abomasum...blablabla....keje bio ta siap ag nieyh... huaaaa...mls nye...complete your BIOSCORE! hahaha ... emh... apapun..tetiba aq terfikir satu benda...raya taon nie jela na enjoy kn? taon depan da SPM. taon lagi satu mungkin aq da masuk U atau A-Level atau further study-insyaAllah, aaamin. rase sekejap sangat masa nie... dan aq baru realise kalau masa aq ngan ibu abah sikit sgtsgtsgt. 4 taon lebih aq ta dok uma. taon dpn un same. lpas spm, dok skejap, estu kene g blaja lg. estu kawin tinggal ngn org lain pulak. takot raya nt ta dpt balik jugak... waaaa.... na nangis aq... tatawu knpe aq fikir camtu. tp ape yg aq tau... aq da besa. ta leyh jadi cam budakbudak lagi. kena belaja hadapi realiti. kankan?
apepun..na cakap..bukan budakbudak je dapat duit raya tau! aq dapat jugak, tp tadela kutip rumahkerumah.makcikpakcikla bagi. haha. slagi aq ta berumur 20 tahun. hahaha...ade 4 taon lg na kutip duit raya bykbyk.(ini bukan childish. ini business.) ye ke? :) yela. kot.
apepun aq ta wish lagi.
seLamAt HarI RayA kWnkwN!
maAfKan SayA YeWp?
:D
apepun..na cakap..bukan budakbudak je dapat duit raya tau! aq dapat jugak, tp tadela kutip rumahkerumah.makcikpakcikla bagi. haha. slagi aq ta berumur 20 tahun. hahaha...ade 4 taon lg na kutip duit raya bykbyk.(ini bukan childish. ini business.) ye ke? :) yela. kot.
apepun aq ta wish lagi.
seLamAt HarI RayA kWnkwN!
maAfKan SayA YeWp?
:D
Friday, August 28, 2009
piano..
k aq skang gilegilegile nak blaja maen piano both hands.. and aq tawu aq ta byk mase.. tp at least aq tgah blaja ngn kak bibah dan mungkin aq akn main piano utk event maktab. ouh sronoknye...tp actelly, it is not about playing piano for the college's event. i just want to learn. that's all. and i heartt piano so much!
piano makes me smile. sweet sgt2. mungkin aq sgt mengidamkan sorg lelaki yang akan main piano untuk aq satu hari nnti..ouhjiwanglaplak. hahaha. well..i dream about it. who knows it'll becomes reality. kankankan? tak mustahil..
apepun padasatumalam...ececeh....aq mngs(mcm biasa la budak kecik slalu ngs):D dan siapa lagi aq cari kalau bukan kawan2 pontian ku..huhu...
dan disebalik itu aq sedar...aq tak keseorangan dan aq sentiasa ade mereka di samping aq. knape aq nangis? dorg kawan aq duniakhirat. yang gilegile. main keja2. nangis gelak gado. loncatloncat atas katil. yang penting kitorg ade disamping masing2 dan aq tau, spirit tu akn sokong aq bile2 dan dimana pun aq berada. ingat janji kita? kita berjaya sama2. kita tak berpisah cuma berjauhan. dan korang akn jadi punca semangat aq utk terus melangkah.
aq memang budak kecik. yang tak yakin diri aq sendiri. tapi satu benda yang aq yakin ialah aq ader 304/08, aq ader cp35, aq ader cp 37, aq ader mcd, aq ader daus dan yang penting aq ader 5th batch aq yang aq sygi(ouh tidaku lupa ckg azizul terchenta!), juga sahabat ku, dan husnan.. hahaa
smlm aq janji kat ibu, aq takkan kutuk diri aq sendiri. "merendah diri itu perlu tapi menghina diri itu salah" something like that la yang aq terbaca dalam buku2 hadis...huhu..dan aq cuba..dan terus mencuba untuk jadi yang terebaik..
biarpun aq bukanlah seorang 4 flat tapi at least aq 3.5 ke atas,
biarpun aq bukanlah presiden yang berwibawa tapi aq da buat segalanya untuk majalah maktab,
dan aq telah dilantik pun utk menjadi presiden, aq tau ape yang aq buat(kaw jangan sibukk oke?)
biarpun aq bukanlah sehebat mereka melontarkan kata2, tapi akulah mc untuk majlis2 rasmi maktab,
dan aq berjuang setiap hari demi keluarga aku, agamaku, diriku, negaraku, shabat2 ku, jua harapan nenda tercinta.
ape lagi yang aq mahu ?
bygkn jika kita diberi everything we always wanted. mungkin aq akn lalai, aq tak ingat tuhan, aq tak doa untuk yang terbaik karana aq telahpun mempunyai yang trbaik. islam is just the way of life. and He knows what is the best for us.
chaiyo ain! manjada wajada
piano makes me smile. sweet sgt2. mungkin aq sgt mengidamkan sorg lelaki yang akan main piano untuk aq satu hari nnti..ouhjiwanglaplak. hahaha. well..i dream about it. who knows it'll becomes reality. kankankan? tak mustahil..
apepun padasatumalam...ececeh....aq mngs(mcm biasa la budak kecik slalu ngs):D dan siapa lagi aq cari kalau bukan kawan2 pontian ku..huhu...
dan disebalik itu aq sedar...aq tak keseorangan dan aq sentiasa ade mereka di samping aq. knape aq nangis? dorg kawan aq duniakhirat. yang gilegile. main keja2. nangis gelak gado. loncatloncat atas katil. yang penting kitorg ade disamping masing2 dan aq tau, spirit tu akn sokong aq bile2 dan dimana pun aq berada. ingat janji kita? kita berjaya sama2. kita tak berpisah cuma berjauhan. dan korang akn jadi punca semangat aq utk terus melangkah.
aq memang budak kecik. yang tak yakin diri aq sendiri. tapi satu benda yang aq yakin ialah aq ader 304/08, aq ader cp35, aq ader cp 37, aq ader mcd, aq ader daus dan yang penting aq ader 5th batch aq yang aq sygi(ouh tidaku lupa ckg azizul terchenta!), juga sahabat ku, dan husnan.. hahaa
smlm aq janji kat ibu, aq takkan kutuk diri aq sendiri. "merendah diri itu perlu tapi menghina diri itu salah" something like that la yang aq terbaca dalam buku2 hadis...huhu..dan aq cuba..dan terus mencuba untuk jadi yang terebaik..
biarpun aq bukanlah seorang 4 flat tapi at least aq 3.5 ke atas,
biarpun aq bukanlah presiden yang berwibawa tapi aq da buat segalanya untuk majalah maktab,
dan aq telah dilantik pun utk menjadi presiden, aq tau ape yang aq buat(kaw jangan sibukk oke?)
biarpun aq bukanlah sehebat mereka melontarkan kata2, tapi akulah mc untuk majlis2 rasmi maktab,
dan aq berjuang setiap hari demi keluarga aku, agamaku, diriku, negaraku, shabat2 ku, jua harapan nenda tercinta.
ape lagi yang aq mahu ?
bygkn jika kita diberi everything we always wanted. mungkin aq akn lalai, aq tak ingat tuhan, aq tak doa untuk yang terbaik karana aq telahpun mempunyai yang trbaik. islam is just the way of life. and He knows what is the best for us.
chaiyo ain! manjada wajada
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